Scared

It is almost 11pm on Thursday 21st September and I am scared. Scared that I am a fraud, scared that I won’t get any work, that I will lose all my money, that I will be a failure. It doesn’t matter how good, I actually am, my brain just won’t accept it. I will always live my life, thinking I am a failure, even though I have succeed in so many areas. Welcome to rejection sensitive dysphoria.